ah.

so...
                   ...here i am...

he left me for a woman....

                                              ....Chiyoko....

what's worse, she's not even real.   she's my brand new laptop.

i won't take her to school much now.  when you have to fight over your bf with your laptop....and even get jealous of her...i'm thinking about sending her back.  i'm getting so...i despise her.

Bitch.

i'm okay if he looks at women...i actually get worried when he doesn't.  but throw a laptop into the formula...and all that is Earth rises up in me rouring for blood.

Unreasonable.

but that doesn't change the fact i can feel my canines growing.

WEEEEEE!  SCHOOL IS OUT!

sorry, jubilation temporarily blinded me!

Currently Listening The Sickness By Disturbed see related

life has been busy.

good busy.

a Spring kind of busy.

school is going well.  can expect to pass all classes.  only one with a medicore grade.  trigonometry is next semester, so exciting!  always thought too stupid to do higher math and now...here i am!

the trip was fun!  had to skip the concert, but met much of his family.  so it was more than worth the time spent.  took lots of pictures!

the relationship thing has been confusing, refreshing, beautiful.  he complements me.  and i too him.  its been good for me.  between him and ginny, the Mask has cracked...almost beyond recognition to those who know/knew me.

hopefully, have been a good/pleasant influence on him as well.

probably not...

Currently Listening Break the Cycle By Staind see related

happy

ah, i shall answer all of your wonderful comments next chance i get!  nice to know missed i was.  i have been reading your comments as they come...just no time to write back.   school has been...interesting.  favorite class most would groan at.  most funny!  rock concert is arriving quickly.

feeling...confused.  happy.  stressed.  ecstatic.  stressed.  hyper.  stressed.  i think there is a theme somewhere in there.  if only to see it i could. 

accepted happiness have i.  it blows my Mind!  to love and not fear?  to touch and not flinch?  to embrace and not cry?  to accept another human's touch...and be made happy by it?  this...this is a gift i shall always thank my God for, and i am speechless to truly express.

on another note...someone has been abusing my human.  i think they need to find their own human to beat up on, and not injure mine.  i think i shall tell them this, some people need the obvious stated.

Currently Listening Lost and Found By Mudvayne see related

i'm so excited!  next month is STOMP!  and then Mudvayne!!!!  sooooooo hyper!  i get to blow off stupid classes and miss my two important ones!!!  ((((hugs random people))))

yeah, music rocks.

my music test was moved to wednesday, so a whole other day to study.  i really needed it.